When Everything Feels Like the Movies

Beautiful, screwed-up, queer - Jude is a young man determined to blow kisses to bigots and defy a lifetime of neglect through glamour. Jude will wear whatever he wants, sleep with whomever he likes and live his life like he's the star of the show. This is his brilliant, blazing story.

Everyone wanted to break me. But stars aren't broken, they explode. And I was the ultimate supernova.

My name was Jude. They called me Judy. I was beautiful either way.

School was basically a movie set. We were all just playing our parts. The Crew, the Extras, the Movie Stars. No one was ever real . . . especially me. I didn't fit any category.

All the girls watched me - I could walk so much better than them in heels, and my make-up was always flawless.

All the boys wanted to, well, you know . . . even if they didn't admit it.

They loved me, they hated me, but they could never ignore me.

I only had eyes for Luke. A red carpet rolled out from my heart towards him and this year, on Valentine'sDay, I was going to walk that carpet and find my mark next to him. It would be like a dream.

But my dream was going to turn into a nightmare.

This is my story.