'You must wonder why this has happened to you,' someone said when I was in hospital. I didn't. I don't. It was clear from the moment I opened my eyes in intensive care that the question is 'Why not?' This is a random game of roulette we're playing, and we don't get to spin the chamber. Kirsten Campbell has confronted the ultimate experience. Now, trapped between a detachment from life and a longing for death, she is given a second chance ...