Renowned composer Alison Connaught is grieving. Her high-profile, Hollywood-based daughter, Ria, has died of an overdose of the OxyContin that Alison had no idea she was taking.
Despite the fact that Ria was 27, living thousands of miles away in the US, with a successful acting career, Alison blames herself. What kind of mother doesn't even know her child is taking opiates?
Alison finds that her grief has muted her. She can no longer play or enjoy her music. She has lost her daughter, and now it seems her career as an award-winning composer for some of the biggest names in the industry is over. On top of this her marriage to Ria's stepfather, Harvey, is suffering.
By travelling to the States, meeting Ria's friends and colleagues, and gaining an insight into the gruelling challenges of Hollywood she begins to form a bridge to both her daughter and her musical muse. She learns that a docu-soap about Ria is in the making. One of Ria's rivals will be both a producer of the programme and the star.
Gradually Alison begins to make music again but this time she is insistent the music will be hers. Her album is released and advertised in the docu-soap's commercial breaks and the accompanying publicity gives Alison the opportunity to tell her side of the story to the world.
There is still one person she needs to speak to and she confronts Joshua - Ria's inconstant boyfriend - and Alison can finally reconcile her place in Ria's story.
This is a visceral and deeply moving tale of grief and regret. Michelle Shine's skill as a storyteller brings Alison's thoughts and actions to life in this stunning novel.
